Last night we had family come over to celebrate a late Christmas. We exchanged gifts and they brought Chinese food, the kids favorite. Joe decided to eat what they brought, but I had no desire to. I didn't want to offend them, and I didn't want to draw too much attention to myself either. It was kind of awkward to be honest. Tiff said loudly, "Mom, you can't eat this food!".
I laughed nervously, and replied, "I could eat it if I wanted to, but I'm choosing not to."
I didn't want to look at my in-laws to see their response. I just smiled as I cut up my tomato and told myself to just stay calm and be confident in my choices. I made a lovely Romaine salad, and went to the table where everyone else was eating the delicious smelling Chinese food.
There were all of my old favorites, crab rangoons, egg rolls, fried rice and chicken wings. I wasn't feeling like I wanted to eat any of it, I just felt a little left out of.... something.
I don't quite know what.
I enjoyed my salad, wondering what my in-laws were thinking where I didn't take any of the food they brought. I didn't say a word to defend or explain myself and neither did they. It felt mindly uncomfortable, like there was a tiny elephant in the room, but we managed to make small talk and enjoy one another's company. I ate quickly and just wanted the meal to be over, so I could feel like I was part of the experience and celebration.
I know it was my own feelings that made me feel "left out", but being fairly new to raw food, these feelings in relation to food are all new to me. We already do things in life that are so different than most people. Living a raw food life is taking it to another level of being "different". This was the first time that I have felt the emotions associated with making different choices regarding food. It was interesting to witness my feelings. It is like spiraling back around again...
I love being Raw. I truly do. I was just not expecting to feel what I did last night being the "food outcast" at a family celebration. It wasn't anything they did to make me feel that way. It was all within myself and I want to be able to deal with the emotions that may come up in a similar situation the next time around. Just another level of awareness! Giddy up!!
I thought I would share some of what I've been eating today with you!
This is a Raw Brussels Sprout and Botija Olive Salad
I never knew that raw brussel sprouts could taste so good! This was delicious!
Raw Chocolate, Banana Ice Kream, with Wild Berry Sauce, Hazelnuts and Coconut.
Rawk your life!